HeavenHelena

 Thank you, god or whoever heard my nightly routine of tears crashing down and the sobbing noise coming from under the blankets. I am going to take the exam after all, and I am going to pass it. Like a baws. Thank you, whoever made this happen .. thank you .. <3

 The lights go out all around me One last candle to keep out the night And then the darkness surrounds me I know I'm alive But I feel like I died And all that's left is to accept that it's over My dreams ran like sand through the fists that I made I try to keep warm but I just grow colder I feel like I'm slipping away After all this has passed I still will remain After I've cried my last There'll be beauty from pain Though it won't be today Someday I'll hope again And there'll be beauty from pain You will bring beauty from my pain My whole world is the pain inside me The best I can do is just get through the day When life b

&nbsp;Since my last entry a lot happened. If everything is going how it is suppose to be going from this point, I am not going to take my national examen for my school, I can't even get in to it with the grades I have now. Since a long time I cry, whenever I talked to someone in particular. Just because I can laugh with her, and not NEXT to her. A long story, fuck that shit =) Yeh, I feel strange, and feel the need to cry although I can't see any reason to do .. so .. :< Life is fucked up, all right >< According to the doctor, is my dizziness and fast getting tired, because my facade I am holding up for over three years now on this fucking scho